Being Brave….doesn’t come easy !

Being Brave….doesn’t come easy !

Life never runs out of stories, which inspire one to stay steadfast in tough situations, keep their smile on and weather the storm like a warrior.

Lucky as I am on and off in life, I had the golden chance to witness someone showing courage when everything in life seemed going the wrong way. From personal conflicts to professional downward curve to certain bankruptcy. It takes courage of 100 warriors to sail through the situation when you know that outside world will put the blame on you with rants of history repeats, something wrong with you only, how can it happen again, sudhar jaao.

So, how does someone get courage or has the courage inside them to stay tall and stay firm. I think it comes from just one source…..conviction in self, your self-belief. When you are convinced that you are right, you did your part, you tried hard and there is nothing more important than the self-respect. That’s when you know that you can sail through any storm that comes your way. Everything else will fall in place. People will forget (people do not matter…who gives shit about them anyway). Family and friends will always support you (at least if they feel they are family and friends). Life will give new opportunities, new directions, and new hope. When you are ready to embrace those and leave everything that shackled you….you know you are a life warrior. You will always be on right path. Either others will join your path or they will see you scampering away on a life journey, which they would always wish they witnessed.

I always believe that either you Live Life on your own terms or people will keep changing the term for you with lots of conditions with * mark hidden somewhere in obscurity.

And my dear…you have chosen…chosen to live by yours!

Will you never make a mistake again, will the life never test you again? I would be lying if I said no. It will test you again someday, some way … but even then, I will always know that you will sail through, sail through another storm and come out victorious on the other side.

So, live life your size, world with adjust accordingly!

Am i brave? That story will unfold some day. For now, i just feel inspired by such golden souls. 

My story is for me...to understand

Sometimes we are just too scared to share our lives, our life's stories, our life's ups and downs. If you are not, I am. I will gladly admit to anyone that i am too scared to share my life story. The story has so many situations, contexts, views that i don't think i will be able to do justice as a story teller, and most importantly, whether other person will be able to understand it.

I think the basic problem in telling the your story to someone is the fear of their interpretation of the story....or the interpretation of you.

The day i met her...again

Its been long since i met her last. While we exchanged a few texts, a call or two, it never happened we came face to face. One one of the many trips i made to her city always thinking about this moment, luck by chance (nothing happens by chance) the stars aligned and their she was and here i was in the same space, me at my worse...a shabby t-shirt, unshaven look, sweating. anxious....and she at her ever so best..fresh, fragrant, smiling, well dressed, shining bright as gold, ever so calm. My eyes were stuck on her like seeing her for the first time, heart falling for her all over again.
Many things i wanted to ask...do you still love me, do you know i love you, why didn't you call me, how are you so calm, i am sorry i let you down, i am sorry i couldn't break the constraints i live with, i am sorry i didn't live up to your dreams, but you know i was never a liar, i was never pretending...what i did was, i just loved you and love you and will always love you with all i have inside me. The best thing i ever did in my life was falling in love with you. My heart still smiles every time i think of you, every time i see a picture of you. A little touch of you made my heart beat faster than i could breathe. I wish i could do time travel and reverse the clock and live every one of those moments again, every minute of it, every second of it ....and may be add a few more moments....one is never too greedy when it comes to Love

Sometimes i wonder how i fell so deep in your love, how you gained so much space in my mind, how i lost my heart and soul to you.....i became you from inside...forever....

Phir ek din mallika-e-mohabbat se mulakaat hogi, mere pyaar ki ek baar phir aazmaaish hogi,
kabhi lage tumhe ki humein tumse pyar nahi, samajh lena mere khilaaf zamane ki saazish hogi,
bas ek baar dekh lena in aankhon mein, tujhe zindagi bhar dekhne aur chahne ki khwaahish hogi.

PS: Divine is love, Love is divine.